PMDD – The Secret Suicide

It’s inevitable. It comes month after month and there’s just no stopping it! We think it’s just PMS symptoms, because that’s what we are told by the doctors. It comes with bloating, fatigue, heavy bleeding and irritability. You go from happy to sad, to angry and irrational within minutes and you feel as if you have no control. You don’t know why you feel the way you do and you couldn’t give an answer to someone when they ask you what’s wrong. You feel like you are going crazy inside! It’s like an out of the body experience and you are looking at yourself not understanding who that person is, or if you are going crazy. Within days, a switch is flipped at the of your menstrual cycle and you become real yourself again. It’s as if you are two different people like Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde.

This is me! This is my struggle each and every month. It’s debilitating and it is known as Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD).

What is PMDD?

PMDD can have debilitating, severe emotional and physical symptoms. It causes ugly mood swings that you can’t control. It can also have damaging effects on relationships and in the workplace. It is not well known condition and just recently was put into the diagnostic manual in 2013. Often it is misdiagnosed for depression, bipolar disorder, or PMS.

Where does PMDD come from?
According to my Gynecologist, Dr. Kingsbury, he told me it was like my brain was having an allergic reaction to the fluctuation of our natural hormones. It affects the serotonin in our brains, which is responsible for making us happy, sad, mean, and yes, even suicidal.

What are the symptoms of PMDD?
I have probably had every single symptom there is, but recently learned how to keep it under control naturally. I’ll share that a bit later. Anyhow, known symptoms include:

  • depressed mood
  • anxiety
  • feeling of hopelessness
  • suicidal ideations
  • appetite changes
  • trouble sleeping
  • lack of interest in the things you once loved
  • anger
  • low energy
  • mood swings
  • lack of concentration
  • migraine headaches

How I have learned to cope
It took me a long time to figure it out…years actually! After being prescribed multiple different anti-depressants and birth control pills that didn’t work for me, I decided to try things my way. Besides, I HATE taking medication, so I quit all of it! I changed my eating habits, I began exercising on a regular basis with Beachbody on Demand, and I started taking some of the best natural supplements that have helped a number of women feel better. This supplement has been a life saver. I take 2 pills everyday, even during my good days and I feel 98% better. Once I started taking them, I noticed a difference within a few days.


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